Sexual Assault Survivor: My Testimony

I too am a Sexual Assault Survivor, and now a part of the “Me Too” movement. Being a Negro Male in America, I know I am not the only one. Through my research, case studies, and Counseling of clients, I’ve learned that many of my peers have also suffered similar or worse fates. These experiences were never discussed, acknowledged, treated, or even given psychological closure. We Men also suffered in silence because of the stigmatic idiosyncrasies, embarrassment, and social mockery that is attributed to ‘Machismo’ or what is perceived as Masculinity. Because of this traumatic personal violation, many committed suicide, lost their mental faculties, abused women, embraced feminine attributes, became addicted to Pornography, addicted to drugs, had gender alterations, became involved in same sex behavior, or engaged in living promiscuous, alternative lifestyles-all because there was never any healing initiated.  Many ended up in Prison (as my Perpetrator did) and as I learned while being a Volunteer Counselor in the GA Penal system for more than 25 years, over 70% of them suffer from some form of Mental Illness. In almost all cases. there was no Father, or healthy representative of a Man in the home. I am blessed to be in my right mind, healthy, and thriving in the Kingdom of God! Although it happened to me when I was 19 years old,  I never fully disclosed it with anyone until now. Thanks to the Actor, Terry Crews, I was inspired to come forth and make my story public after he exposed his Perpetrator. I’m not sure if the guy who assaulted me is even still alive, but I had to forgive him, because it is in the Word of God to do so, (Matthew 6:14), and fight to move on for my own mental health and stability sake. I hope this will help someone to begin or complete their healing process as well.

While searching through life to find out who I was and what I wanted to do, I was abusing drugs and recklessly altering my consciousness. My supplier was this Ex-Convict, who drugged and sexually assaulted me. Not only did my abuse of the drugs put my physical body in danger, but also my spiritual well being. I am grateful that my Grandmother and Mother planted a “Spiritual Identity Seed’ in me as a child, and I knew that God was real. Although my Father was present, he did not lead us into the admonition of the Lord-which I desperately needed him to do; He did not validate or affirm my siblings and I. Later, I learned that my Grandfather never validated or affirmed him, or his 13 siblings either. This is a Generational Curse perpetrated by the enemy to break down and destroy the Family structure, starting with the ‘Head’, the Father. I knew that I could pray to Jesus and He would listen; even though I decided to stray from the Church and disobey what I knew was right, I could repent to Him. He was the only one who could deliver me from Sexual Promiscuity, Alcohol Abuse, Relational Issues in Dating, and Pornography Addiction-no one else! I also knew that I had a great purpose in life, and that one day I would be successful, and in a position to help many people. My ‘Spiritual Identity Seed’, has now grown into “….a tree, planted by the rivers of water, yielding its fruit in season, and whose leaf does not wither” (Psalm 1:3). Allow me to introduce you to Yourself….
SeerSucker Suit (Seated)

Why Things are the way they REALLY are…..

The answer is actually quite simple, Mankind has an ‘Spiritual Identity’ problem; many still haven’t acknowledged that Jesus is the ONLY way to God (Get a Bible, you’ll need it). It doesn’t take a Physicist or Rocket Scientist to see that things aren’t getting better; they are actually getting progressively worse. But why? Many ask, “Isn’t God a loving God?” ” Why would He allow these evils to happen and not stop them?” Simply put, God is still in control of the Universe, but He gave Man the ‘dominion’ and ‘authority’ on the Earth, (Genesis 1:26). However, Man disobeyed the command of God to “….not eat from the ‘Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil…” while he was in the Garden of God (Gen. 3:2-7). By doing so, he turned that dominion and authority over to the Devil, or Satan, ‘the Adversary’; he is a fallen Arch Angel, who was once the Worship Leader in God’s presence. This is NOT a fairy tale or legend, as many want to believe; that’s what Satan WANTS people to believe. I’ve learned through the years that the only people who have a problem with the Bible, are the ones who don’t want to OBEY its commands! By believing its not true, you release yourself to practice all of the sin you want, with no conviction; now you give yourself an excuse to fornicate, drink, get high, party, lie, steal, commit Adultery and have children with Married people, in spite of their Spouse, etc. with no remorse whatsoever. He is driven and obsessed to destroy his replacement, Mankind, by any means necessary. Sin was manifested, and The Holy Ghost would no longer dwell in Man on the Earth as a result; its evils manifested in us, and every living thing on the Earth is in turmoil and suffering (Roman 8:19). This, all because of what that one man, Adam, did. Fast forward 3,000 years: God sent His Son, JESUS, to correct and restore Mankind’s Spiritual Identity, and everything Satan stole from Adam (Romans 5:15). He showed us how we are supposed to love, live, and use the restored Authority of the Holy Spirit, in the Kingdom of God; no longer being victims of Satan and Death. However, the Holy Spirit could not return to Man until Jesus was sacrificed, paying for all of our sins, and then return to the Right Hand of God, His Father. This allowed Jesus to send the Holy Ghost back to Earth, re-establishing the Kingdom of God (John 16:5-11).  Now, we who worship and obey God by receiving Jesus as His Son, can also be filled with the Holy Ghost; this is how Jesus restored our Citizenship in His Kingdom, and gave us authority again. Through Him, we have authority over evil spirits, demons, and all power of the enemy, Satan (Luke 10:19). NO ONE ELSE can give us this authority but Jesus; we literally can pray and influence God to heal the land, but it is conditional on our part (II Chronicles 7:14). Those who reject Jesus as the Son of God and the ONLY way to get to God, (John 14:6), do not possess this authority, and are conduits for Satan to continue to wreak havoc on the Earth through them. He uses 1/3 of the Angels he deceived in Revelations 12:3-9, along with evil spirits and demons, to promote his kingdom of darkness. Idol Worship (Religion), Injustice, Murder, Greed, Crime, Wars, Famine Disasters, Perversions of all kinds, Mental/Physical Sickness and Disease, Cruelty, Racism, and Godlessness are the tools he uses, along with the ignorance and rebellion of Man-not God. The majority of our problems in life are in direct correlation to our disobedience to the commands of Jesus in the Holy Scriptures!

If you want to walk in the authority and protection of the Kingdom of God that only Jesus can give you, ask Him to come into your heart, and forgive you for committing sin and disobeying His commandments. Confess that He died for all of your mistakes, and then was raised from the dead by the Holy Spirit; renounce any other gods you worshiped and destroy anything that is in relation to them. Pray for guidance to a Holy Spirit-Filled Pastor, and join that Ministry so that you may learn and grow among Brethren. Bless You!