I know Jesus as ‘Jehovah Rapha’ (My Healer) Part I

The Lord recently revealed to me as I was pondering some of the difficult things He has brought me through during my life, that the enemy, Satan, has actually been trying to kill me all of my life! However, I thank God for my Angels being on their duty, protecting and guiding me even when I wasn’t always doing what was right (I’m sure you can relate). It started on the day I was born in my Dad’s Best Friend’s car, in front of Chicago’s Mercy Hospital on a rainy September 13th day in the 60’s. My Mom was a teenage Mother, so she was strong and healthy, coming from a very strong stock of smart, strong, and very attractive Women. She delivered me with no problems, considering the circumstances. She recently divulged to me that immediately after she delivered me, they rushed us into a small waiting room where she and I were the only two there; we were ‘quarantined’! I guess my being born in that car could present a health hazard to the other little ‘crumb snatchers’ in the Nursery. God’s mercy prevailed, and we survived with no problems whatsoever. A little over 3 years later, I was in one of my Aunt’s Apartments in the newly built Projects on Chicago’s South Side, not too far from Cottage Grove Ave., and noticed some of the Paint on the wall peeling off. I remember it was a blueish-gray color (strange that I can recall that), and decided to give it a taste like children often do; I often got my hand spanked for putting things in my mouth and knew I wasn’t supposed to do so, but I tasted the paint. It actually had a ‘sweet’ taste to my surprise, and that’s the last thing I remember about the incident. I later was told when I was a Teenager that on that day, they came into the room where I was, and found me unconscious on the floor. They were horrified, and rushed my limp little body to the Hospital, barely breathing. My stomach was pumped and the Doctors told my Mom that I would probably end up with Brain damage, because other children had been eating this new “Led-based Paint”, and died. It was later stripped from the Buildings and banned from being used. But God!!! He stepped in again and spared my life with no damage to my Brain’s Central Nervous System. A few years later, I remember being in my bedroom trying to go to sleep, but just laid there wide awake. It was time for bed, and we had to get up for School in the morning; suddenly though, I felt some invisible hands on my mouth, and others holding my hands down next to my side. I was terrified, but couldn’t utter a peep. I could hear my Parents down the hallway talking in their Bedroom, and even my Brother in his room making noise while he was supposed to be sleeping as well. I remember thinking Mom was going to give him a whipping for not being in bed.

I looked over on the wall and saw two or three Gargoyle looking creatures sitting on the wall! I began to moan and breathe hard, but could do nothing but think and move my eyes back and forth. I began to think on the name of “JESUS”, and after a few moments, they suddenly released me and fled; I ran to my Parent’s Bedroom, and told them what just happened. My Dad mocked me, but my Mom listened and could plainly see that I was horrified. At my Dad’s strong objection, they let me sleep at the foot of their Bed that night. That wasn’t the last time Demons came to my Bed and sat on it, trying to intimidate and strike fear in me again. I believe many who have weak Hearts may have suffered an Attack as the result of Demons visiting them. After I received Jesus as my Savior, began to live by His commands and learn of my Spiritual Identity in Him, I understood that “He gave me Authority over all Demons, (Serpents and Scorpions) and the power of the enemy (Satan)…..” (Luke 10:9). The next time they came in my 20’s, I commanded them to leave, in the Name of Jesus, and they immediately fled! They even had the audacity to come again as recently as two years ago! I guess they are waiting to catch me with my guard down- I’m just going to keep cutting them up with my ‘Sword'(The Word of God) again! We all have been given this Authority, but only through faith in God’s Son Jesus, sacrificing His life on the Cross. Through obedience and living holy lifestyles, we can walk in His Spiritual Identity ordained for us.

‘Holiness’ is the issue-not ‘Lifestyle’!

What exactly is “Holiness’ or being ‘Holy’? To be Holy means ‘to be dedicated or consecrated to God; being sacred, hallowed, or sanctified.’ So many are caught up with the issue of the Lifestyle they’ve decided to take part in, that they ignore what God has said about them living holy and ‘presenting your body a living sacrifice’ (Romans 12: 1). God’s command to “…be ye Holy, for I am Holy” in 1 Peter 1:16, gives us a clear directive on how we are to live. The only way we can live holy is to be ‘filled’ with the Holy Ghost, through Jesus Christ. So, since we know we have to be holy, this should dismiss all confusion and other alternative lifestyles and behaviors like Adultery, Fornication, Masturbation, Same-Sex behavior, and Deviant Sex. Participating in a sexual act is a BEHAVIOR; it does not change WHO you were created to be. Why not live the way the Bible instructs us to? Your Spiritual Identity in Christ shields you from the backlash of these sinful traps by the Devil, stealing your spiritual Heritage. You are MUCH more than a sexual desire…..

The ‘Spiritual I. D’. vs. ‘Fake I. D.’

When I was 18 years old in Chicago, partying, doing drugs, drinking, and carousing with wild women, I still couldn’t gain entry into the swank Club and Bar scene because I had to be 21. I was able to obtain a ‘Fake I.D.’ from a friend who was the same age, which showed that I was 23 years old; it gave me access to the Devil’s territory, and all of the snares of sin that came with it. Needless to say, it almost cost me my life. I was introduced to people, places, behaviors, and more drugs, all contributing to the sabotaging of my soul. So it is in the spirit realm for people who are curious about gaining access to the supernatural, its mysteries and power. Satan issues you a ‘Fake Spiritual I.D.’ allowing you entrance into the dark side of the spirit realm. The danger in this endeavor of learning about Pagan gods, Ancient ancestral practices and worship, is that you must reject the Sovereignty of Jesus as the only way to God, in order to gain its influence. It is cut and dry-there is no ‘gray area’ in this pursuit of Forbidden Knowledge; you reject the Spiritual Identity Jesus gives you through His sacrifice on the Cross, and embrace Satan’s. You actually open ‘gates’ in the spirit realm that you are not ‘Authorized’ to enter and dominate through the Holy Ghost. All involvement in the Occult which includes Astrology, Psychic Phenomena, Clairvoyancy, Divination, Witchcraft, Magic, Sorcery, and Idolatry,(Deuteronomy 18:10), are the ‘gates’ that give you entry, and is forbidden by God. Ignorance of this fact is not an excuse to engage in their practices. You become a pawn for Satan; you are now on his territory and he has a spiritual right to attack you or use you, its just a matter of time before he gets tired of using you to lure others into his kingdom of darkness, and kills you. It’s like a Student Driver gaining entrance to the ‘Indy 500’ or ‘NASCAR’ Racetrack; they’re not equipped or experienced enough to be in that environment. Unfortunately, those who seek Satan’s influence to give them exceptional talent in Sports, Music, or Business, will eventually have to ‘pay the piper’ with the loss of their souls, and sometimes even that of a close loved one. They don’t take the long term result of this ‘deal’ into consideration-all they know is that they want it NOW. This is why you see so many famous, rich people dying at young ages, or committing suicide; they sought their Spiritual Identity and fulfillment in what the Devil offered them, instead of what Jesus died for, and bequeathed to them.

If you have engaged in this practice, you can repent of doing so- ask the Lord to forgive you for sinning against Him, His Son, and His Spirit. Renounce all oaths taken to serve the Devil, his kingdom, and the Occult; cut off all contact with those still engaged in it and destroy ALL items associated with its practice. Those items can represent another gate, allowing evil spirits and demons to come back to torment you. Ask Jesus to come into your heart and forgive you; confess that He is the Son of God, and only He could save you from God’s judgement of sin, with His Blood and being resurrected from the dead. Pray that He delivers you from the Devil and his reluctance to release your soul; ask for guidance to a spirit-filled Pastor who teaches the Kingdom of God and living holy lifestyles in the presence of God, through the Bible.

S. I. D. in Christ
Your PASSPORT to The Kingdom of God

Sexual Assault Survivor: My Testimony

I too am a Sexual Assault Survivor, and now a part of the “Me Too” movement. Being a Negro Male in America, I know I am not the only one. Through my research, case studies, and Counseling of clients, I’ve learned that many of my peers have also suffered similar or worse fates. These experiences were never discussed, acknowledged, treated, or even given psychological closure. We Men also suffered in silence because of the stigmatic idiosyncrasies, embarrassment, and social mockery that is attributed to ‘Machismo’ or what is perceived as Masculinity. Because of this traumatic personal violation, many committed suicide, lost their mental faculties, abused women, embraced feminine attributes, became addicted to Pornography, addicted to drugs, had gender alterations, became involved in same sex behavior, or engaged in living promiscuous, alternative lifestyles-all because there was never any healing initiated.  Many ended up in Prison (as my Perpetrator did) and as I learned while being a Volunteer Counselor in the GA Penal system for more than 25 years, over 70% of them suffer from some form of Mental Illness. In almost all cases. there was no Father, or healthy representative of a Man in the home. I am blessed to be in my right mind, healthy, and thriving in the Kingdom of God! Although it happened to me when I was 19 years old,  I never fully disclosed it with anyone until now. Thanks to the Actor, Terry Crews, I was inspired to come forth and make my story public after he exposed his Perpetrator. I’m not sure if the guy who assaulted me is even still alive, but I had to forgive him, because it is in the Word of God to do so, (Matthew 6:14), and fight to move on for my own mental health and stability sake. I hope this will help someone to begin or complete their healing process as well.

While searching through life to find out who I was and what I wanted to do, I was abusing drugs and recklessly altering my consciousness. My supplier was this Ex-Convict, who drugged and sexually assaulted me. Not only did my abuse of the drugs put my physical body in danger, but also my spiritual well being. I am grateful that my Grandmother and Mother planted a “Spiritual Identity Seed’ in me as a child, and I knew that God was real. Although my Father was present, he did not lead us into the admonition of the Lord-which I desperately needed him to do; He did not validate or affirm my siblings and I. Later, I learned that my Grandfather never validated or affirmed him, or his 13 siblings either. This is a Generational Curse perpetrated by the enemy to break down and destroy the Family structure, starting with the ‘Head’, the Father. I knew that I could pray to Jesus and He would listen; even though I decided to stray from the Church and disobey what I knew was right, I could repent to Him. He was the only one who could deliver me from Sexual Promiscuity, Alcohol Abuse, Relational Issues in Dating, and Pornography Addiction-no one else! I also knew that I had a great purpose in life, and that one day I would be successful, and in a position to help many people. My ‘Spiritual Identity Seed’, has now grown into “….a tree, planted by the rivers of water, yielding its fruit in season, and whose leaf does not wither” (Psalm 1:3). Allow me to introduce you to Yourself….
SeerSucker Suit (Seated)

Why Things are the way they REALLY are…..

The answer is actually quite simple, Mankind has an ‘Spiritual Identity’ problem; many still haven’t acknowledged that Jesus is the ONLY way to God (Get a Bible, you’ll need it). It doesn’t take a Physicist or Rocket Scientist to see that things aren’t getting better; they are actually getting progressively worse. But why? Many ask, “Isn’t God a loving God?” ” Why would He allow these evils to happen and not stop them?” Simply put, God is still in control of the Universe, but He gave Man the ‘dominion’ and ‘authority’ on the Earth, (Genesis 1:26). However, Man disobeyed the command of God to “….not eat from the ‘Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil…” while he was in the Garden of God (Gen. 3:2-7). By doing so, he turned that dominion and authority over to the Devil, or Satan, ‘the Adversary’; he is a fallen Arch Angel, who was once the Worship Leader in God’s presence. This is NOT a fairy tale or legend, as many want to believe; that’s what Satan WANTS people to believe. I’ve learned through the years that the only people who have a problem with the Bible, are the ones who don’t want to OBEY its commands! By believing its not true, you release yourself to practice all of the sin you want, with no conviction; now you give yourself an excuse to fornicate, drink, get high, party, lie, steal, commit Adultery and have children with Married people, in spite of their Spouse, etc. with no remorse whatsoever. He is driven and obsessed to destroy his replacement, Mankind, by any means necessary. Sin was manifested, and The Holy Ghost would no longer dwell in Man on the Earth as a result; its evils manifested in us, and every living thing on the Earth is in turmoil and suffering (Roman 8:19). This, all because of what that one man, Adam, did. Fast forward 3,000 years: God sent His Son, JESUS, to correct and restore Mankind’s Spiritual Identity, and everything Satan stole from Adam (Romans 5:15). He showed us how we are supposed to love, live, and use the restored Authority of the Holy Spirit, in the Kingdom of God; no longer being victims of Satan and Death. However, the Holy Spirit could not return to Man until Jesus was sacrificed, paying for all of our sins, and then return to the Right Hand of God, His Father. This allowed Jesus to send the Holy Ghost back to Earth, re-establishing the Kingdom of God (John 16:5-11).  Now, we who worship and obey God by receiving Jesus as His Son, can also be filled with the Holy Ghost; this is how Jesus restored our Citizenship in His Kingdom, and gave us authority again. Through Him, we have authority over evil spirits, demons, and all power of the enemy, Satan (Luke 10:19). NO ONE ELSE can give us this authority but Jesus; we literally can pray and influence God to heal the land, but it is conditional on our part (II Chronicles 7:14). Those who reject Jesus as the Son of God and the ONLY way to get to God, (John 14:6), do not possess this authority, and are conduits for Satan to continue to wreak havoc on the Earth through them. He uses 1/3 of the Angels he deceived in Revelations 12:3-9, along with evil spirits and demons, to promote his kingdom of darkness. Idol Worship (Religion), Injustice, Murder, Greed, Crime, Wars, Famine Disasters, Perversions of all kinds, Mental/Physical Sickness and Disease, Cruelty, Racism, and Godlessness are the tools he uses, along with the ignorance and rebellion of Man-not God. The majority of our problems in life are in direct correlation to our disobedience to the commands of Jesus in the Holy Scriptures!

If you want to walk in the authority and protection of the Kingdom of God that only Jesus can give you, ask Him to come into your heart, and forgive you for committing sin and disobeying His commandments. Confess that He died for all of your mistakes, and then was raised from the dead by the Holy Spirit; renounce any other gods you worshiped and destroy anything that is in relation to them. Pray for guidance to a Holy Spirit-Filled Pastor, and join that Ministry so that you may learn and grow among Brethren. Bless You!